WALKING ON SICK CLOUDS !
Mar 27, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pr7hjtlw5RY

oh good morning you guys and welcome to
Wednesday oMG so yesterday you guys got
to see lovely mr. Ali
I have been so sick so sick that this is
probably the sickest I have been in fact
I ended up going to Urgent Care you guys
because I got so bad I can't breathe I
have like oh my god back here it's like
a knot and my ear inside my right ear
hurts so bad and they said that it's a
little bit of an ear infection plus
sinus in final I am NOT saying it right
but pressure and like all up in here is
all infected
yeah so I'm on my inhaler because I
can't seem to get enough air in my lungs
I feel like okay it's in the dryer dry
and honey okay I'm an on an inhaler I'm
taking tylenol for pain taking ibuprofen
exported s infection and then and uh
ibuprofen as well for so I can take
tylenol and ibuprofen because I'm
running a really high fever on top of it
also but I wanted to come to you guys
today because I miss you all
um as well but I appreciate all the
sweet comments you guys I really did I
excuse the fact that I am eating guys
this is all I've eaten in two days
literally and it's a frozen it's a
frozen meal I don't not even cooking and
it's just spaghetti from frozen
Stouffer's something or other I don't
know but I need to eat something because
I've got a whole bunch of Medicine
hitting my stomach and it's gonna make
me sicker than a dog if I don't so
anyways but I did want to thank
everybody for all your guys's sweet
comments I truly truly truly truly
appreciate everybody you guys are so
awesome and just so flexible in the
sense that I had to have Ollie do my
video yesterday and I felt so bad
because it was so late but he was out
trying to get my medicines
it just it was like non-stop like
non-stop going so when he came home I
was like baby you're gonna have to do
the video like I can't I didn't have
much of a voice I mean I had a voice but
I sound like a toad was sitting on my
throat um I just wasn't feeling good
like I really was not feeling good at
all and clearly well we know why cuz I
was running in a complete fever and
sinus infection and everything in
between and when I say all he was out
getting me medicines he was getting me
the total I didn't have any Tylenol also
chosen by the Bell box from Costco I
have my ibuprofen from my doctor's
office so and that just that alone
helped a lot less
but it's like that pressure like when
you push you could just fill it like all
up and underneath your face and stuff
whoo so yeah anyways but I really
appreciated him sitting down and talking
and I just let him kind of do his own
thing like I was just like here you can
take it he's like what am I supposed to
talk about I'm like talk about whatever
your little heart desires like today is
your day you're on you're on shift buddy
hahahahaha so I let him kind of just do
his thing and call it good so anyways I
just told him I'm like you take a game
and you just do what you want to do I am
out for the day like I I slept a lot
yesterday I let slept like five and a
half hours like just from morning to
like mid-afternoon
I would get up I would try and like
watch something on my laptop or I'd get
on YouTube and just watch something and
I pass out and oh but today I woke up I
still felt like poo but I got my
medicines on board and I told all the I
was like you know what we have to we
have to get this house clean like when I
say clean we need to get it disinfected
clean because I cannot continue to uh
sorry I have my fan blowing for a little
bit I can't continue to have this house
so full of germs between everybody being
sick and stuff so we cracked out the
bleach and the pine-sol and everything
else and we all got in here like in the
house and we just started scrubbing it
and it feels so good to have a clean
house though like the floors are mopped
and clean the bathroom is clean it's
nice and clean so now I'm just slowly
catching up on laundry and trying to get
that stuff done a little by little I'm
not pushing myself past my point that I
feel like I can do and
so vault is what I am doing as some of
you guys might notice I did remove one
of my videos for the first time in a
year well not technically your yeah but
almost a year for the first time I ever
deleted a video that had over 5 or 600
video views but to me you know what
views and money ain't worth my sanity
and my channel and remember what all I
was trying to take care and you know
I've gotten a lot of backlash from a few
things that I was getting involved in
that I didn't need to get involved in
wasn't my place to fix it wasn't my
place to say anything and it's true and
so after thinking about it last night
I always think it's so weird to eat on
camera cuz I like to eat in private like
crazy but I'm afraid all my medicines
gonna hit and then I'm gonna be sick um
anyways I was receiving a lot of
backlash from people because they see me
in different lives talking about things
and at the end of the day my channel is
my everything
my channel is like one of my children
and I'm going to protect my channel in
every which way possible from being
affected by anything that doesn't need
to be affected therefore there was a
certain video that I had put up dear
viewers Ida had to do with a couple of
my youtubers that I've been watching and
I didn't feel the need to have it up
there I don't I don't know an
explanation for my actions of what I do
I'll stand firm to the fact that I don't
feel that I need to be told what I can
do and what I can't do I mean I am an
adult and I do my own thing but I do
take constructive criticism to heart and
I read quite a few messages from
different people from different channels
that were commenting towards me like hey
pay attention Amy heed your warning and
it's true it is true so I did I I really
thought about it and I thought you know
it's true I why what am i doing like
really what am i doing I'm 38 this year
you know I'm not I'm not 12 and I
promote positivity I promote kindness I
promote everything in between
I don't want negativity in my channel I
don't want people to think of me or hear
my name and think she's a backstabber or
she's a
drama maker or she's of this or she's of
that when I have somebody here my name I
don't want them to think about the
positive things about me because that's
what I want I want to promote nothing
but love and acceptance to others and
and things like that and so because of
that I withdrew myself from a couple
channels and I'm just gonna wash my
hands of the whole situation I'm just
hoping that the mess will disappear away
from me and my channel are that I'm left
alone and life goes on you know I want
to apologize to anybody that I offended
in the midst of this whole fiasco that's
been going on I want to apologize if I
made somebody feel like I was being mean
or cruel or not promoting what I do
promote positivity and acceptance and
body acceptance and all the things above
I want to apologize because I would
never want to hurt somebody I would
never want somebody to think of me as a
bad person I always want people to think
of me as a good person because that's
what I am I don't believe that I I don't
believe that I purposely tried to do
things to hurt people and when I see
comments that are brought to my
attention that I see that our positive
comments of hey you know we're heating
we're giving you a warning just to be
careful step on bricks not on sand and I
want my foundation to be of bricks and
not of sand and that's why I've chosen
to take down that video because I don't
want anything brought to my channel that
will be anything other than what I have
promoted from the get-go and I will not
sit on a fence and be of both sides
because a lot of people are right you
can't be you either or are or you're not
you either are for positivity and body
acceptance and uplifting or you're not
it's it's one or the other you can't
choose and be it's not black and white
like it's either it's either black and
it's white but you can't get the grey
and I don't want to be in that gray
section because I that there's just no
possible way to make everybody happy
because at the end of the day I have to
stand for what I believe in and that is
of all the things that I promote and
where I'm gonna go back to on my streams
so yes I did take down a video I am
proud to take down the video I am proud
to take back my channel and regain back
the trust within people that I maybe
have lost trust with I want people to
believe that I would never do something
to hurt somebody's feelings and perme
like purposely I would never do that and
I don't want anybody to think that I
would so I did last night remove of a
video I deleted it completely off my my
stuff and it won't go back because it's
deleted and it's time to move on it's
time to get back to its kids time to get
back to reality of what my channel is
about because that's what it's all about
and dry my feet off and not be dipping
my toes into any nastiness because I
doesn't need to be there so anywho I am
gonna sit here and finish up my lunch so
that I can get this medicine in me and
start to feel better I think everybody
for all of your kind wish well wishes
but a little and I'm hoping that now
that I've got antibiotics on board that
I will continue to feel better little by
little because oh this stuff's got to go
away like it's got to disappear because
I'm tired of being sick so anyways I
love each and every one of
you guys and I truly truly truly truly
truly am blessed to have each of you
guys here all of my new subscribers
thank you so much for participating in
my channel and hitting that subscribe
button and being a part of my family
of YouTube and again like I said I
promote positivity and that's what I
wanted to stay at I am NOT gonna do my
book reading today you guys because my
book is put away and I don't feel like
getting it out but we will get back to
normal reality tomorrow I promise but
until then I hope you guys take care and
I will check in with you guys here soon
and keep you guys updated on how things
are going I hope all of you guys are
staying healthy I am so glad I cannot
pass my germs on to you guys because
this is horrible but I hope everybody is
taking care and again like I said I love
you all and I will check in soon bye bye
